It’s the second Tuesday of April. My emotions are in a roller coaster state. As time has moved closer to this week I’ve gotten worse… I’ve been messing things up at work… saying things, doing things, just not quite right… I shouldn’t be letting work be affected… I shouldn’t be jumping to conclusions… I shouldn’t be ignoring procedures… Inside I’m just going a bit nuts… I don’t want to let things catch up to me… I don’t want to think about it… I want things crazy enough that this week just doesn’t register… but thats not going to happen… The second Tuesday of April one year ago was such a good day… trouble free day at work… Fry’s trip after work… Cheeseburger in Paradise for dinner after Fry’s… Then, a casual farewell… a final farewell…
It still hurts…
John's Musings 
*hug*
I know. I know. We’ll get through this. The first year is the hardest, and it’s almost over.
“Love you, bro.”
I’m sorry John…
*hugs* from all of us.